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Please do get help I went through depression when health and financial problems hit me I could not get round it all and all I want to do is end it there's thing's  I could not talk to my wife or family how I felt doctors put me in touch with mental health team i still have one to one chats I have now one more session they have done wonders with me my health problems are not going away but talking to someone on the end of the phone has made me feel better I'm starting to do things again slowly one step at a time so please get help.

I agree with the other comments - DON'T DO IT.  Many people suffer from depression or other mental health issues at some point in their life.  The problem is that it can be difficult to talk about because there is still a bit of a stigma associated with mental health issues.  I think men also find it more difficult to discuss their feelings than women.  I'm not sure if that is a fear that they will be seen as weak (non macho) or because the male of the species is somehow less able to express the way they feel in words.   A shout out for help is the first step to recovery.

My own employer is keen on trying to break down that stigma in the workplace and therefore encourage all of us to think about our own mental health and they set up the One Million Lives website (https://www.oml.world/) to provide some resources (which can be used by anyone) and trained some staff as 'positive mental health champions' to encourage people to discuss mental health issues.  I think that is helpful, but the problem is of course when you are as depressed as to consider suicide you probably need more direct help from medical professionals.  We are encouraged to be supportive of other staff's mental health issues, but if we have concerns that someone is contemplating taking their life to contact emergency services.  A friendly supportive chat with a colleague on its own isn't enough.

Your doctor should presumably be able to prescribe anti-depressants, which help to some extent: I take them myself.  They don't suddenly make the world a happy place (let's be honest there is a lot wrong with the human race at the moment) but I find that they do take the edge off the lows.  I'm tempted to say that they don't work, but on the days when I forget to take them I do feel worse, so I conclude that they still help me.  In the case of contemplating suicide they simply give a bit of breathing space to help identify why you feel like giving up on life.  I don't know what the circumstances are that make you feel the way you do, but again counselling can be helpful - the problem is mainly that in the UK at least it can take a while to get referred to someone.

Whatever you do - seek help.  You are not alone and there are more people out there that care about you than you may realise.

It's another "+1" post from me, too.

I don't want to labour the point - but the people here are right. "Stepping back from the brink" - and talking things over quietly - sounds like the best call.

Take care - I mean it - and so do lots of other people here.