Dinky Buses and Corgi trams and ...mild autism ...?

[deeslexia]

Even mild autism is awkward. It's very definitely being stuck twix 1947 and around 1957 .. as if the hard drive is full and I can't delete and add more appropriate /current.Oddly, I seemed familiar with before 1947, but realised that both people/attitudes/things dated from the turn of the century meaning that I could assimilate them...wierd.

i don't do people because severe gender stuff means I can't resolve he/she/me [ I hate Gap etc LOL] so cars/buses of the 50s and Dinky Toys  became safe 'faces'. 

 

For me, it's binary-something is or it isn't...I was standing before two 'buses'.

One was THE BUS - school bus circa 1950s, the other could not be bus/what is it?

Intellectually, I can work around this but it's ever there.

I worked out that my mind is remembering imprinted shapes/profiles and won't recognise/accept any alternative.

 

Another aspect is that, like a 5 year old my mind sees 'bus again' rather than 'several buses passing'. I can still understand the 5 year old asking Dad if he could get into a model car and the curt response-a car in the distance IS tiny-a fact that we all depend upon-but most lose this perception.

 

I also seem to need reinforcement of input/stimulus in the sense of say, 3x Dinky Bus - repetition of stimulus 'bus' helping, briefly, to keep object in focus.

I also have a collection of Contax/Kiev cameras which offer the continuity from 1935 to 1975 and are all very similar.

 

Corgi Trams and original Dinky Buses - luckily slight not sameness is stimulating rather than dee'sturbing.They are basically all the same shape and not so expensive to buy groups of 3x, although London Transport essential to me .

 

The tram thing came from my Grandfather taking me on several trams around 1950 when I would have been 3 years old, but shapes are easily imprinted as an infant and reinforced by several later visits to Chessington Zoo-where the main attraction was the tram outside-which I recently travelled on at a museum!

 

Creating a fantasy fleet of LT trams based upon school bus terminus at East Acton is great for me.

I have several EFE RTs etc , but trams seem to be an even earlier imprint are safe and familiar.

 

dee