I like trains of all sorts but particularly steam from all over the world. Yes this is an English site but there are many steam locos in the world and different ways of doing things. I don't like rivet counters and I don't consider myself as an anorack as we don't have them in Australia.
I also like Ford Australia's Falcons.
Don't do it. Simple. Go call Samaritans. Talk it through. Their advice is awesome. I guess you have been discussing this with yourself in your head: time to bring some other expert advisors into the conversation.
Takes Balls to post such a statement faulcon. That suggests you will come through all this as you have those Balls. I look forward to seeing your posts describing your progress that you will undoubtedly make. Bless you matey.